Wednesday, September 3, 2008

WARNING: Long post

I'm finally back to blogging - I'll be better about updates now that I'm getting settled in more.

House news:

It's coming along very nicely. Slower than anticipated for several reasons, but all is going well. The move itself went great - everything arrived safely, but I ran into some unforeseen problems once it was all over here. My bed didn't fit up the stairway to the second floor, so that was a bummer. I had concerns about that fit ever since I first saw the house, but I figured there must be some way. There isn't. This slightly older house (1949 build) just has skinnier doorways and stairwells than more modern houses, and it just wasn't going to have any part of that bed's unique head/footboards or it's queen-sized traditional mattress/boxspring. So, I now have a completely outfitted spare bedroom on the main floor. And it is quite literally a bed room - that ginormous bed takes up just about all of the smallish room, but hey, at least it fits in there! Next, I wanted to set up my TV area in the basement rec room, and then get new living room furniture to have a real living room upstairs (no TV!). My couch and chair wouldn't fit through the basement stairwell. So, those are staying on the main floor too. No big deal there - those furniture pieces are still in great shape and will work fine in my living room. Otherwise, things are slowly finding their place here.

I'm painting right now - the office and spare bedroom are done (and put together), and I just finished the dining room (waiting for that to dry completely overnight now). Tomorrow, I'll paint the living room. Then - finally - I'll be able to get everything pretty much moved into place. Right now, the living room and basement are still filled with mucho flotsam & jetsam of moving carnage. And my kitchen isn't faring much better, although I can at least make my morning coffee ;-)

On the bright side, I did end up with a great new queen-sized mattress and bedframe from good ol' Ikea that I absolutely love. It's a latex mattress that was just barely pliable enough to mash & stuff up the stairway. So, my upstairs master bedroom is looking (and feeling!) good. I also scored a basic cheapie sofa arrangement from Ikea to use downstairs for the TV area; it's nothing great, but it does the job. I don't watch enough TV to justify paying for cable, so I got one of those HD boxes and an indoor HD antenna, and it seems to be working out fine. Reception down there is a tad sketchy sometimes, but I haven't really made a concerted effort yet to tweak the setup. It'll be good enough. I really like the notion of having an adult living room with no idiot box, so that thing is staying downstairs no matter what.

My washer and dryer fit downstairs fine (whew!). Getting the old ones out was an adventure though. I thought I could perhaps do it by myself, and I did indeed manage to get the dryer out, but I couldn't get the washer up even one step - that thing was a friggin' tank. Fortunately, the movers were able to get it out the next day just fine.

Some miscellaneous thoughts on moving:

I was struck over the past week or so with fleeting moments of loneliness and insecurity. Which is odd, since I have no reason to feel that way. I've come the conclusion that it's a Pavlovian response to moving - I've moved a lot in my life, and it's usually been to new places and new circumstances - basically, leaving behind a comfortable and "known" existence, so those feeling were a bit more understanble to experience. Just seemed strange to have them pop up a couple times with this move too. I also think it's just the overall feeling of not being settled in anywhere yet - when things are all packed up in various locations, and there's that transitional period where you don't really have a home, it seems to naturally breed some insecurity.

While thinking about all of that over the weekend, I asked myself, "What makes your home home?" Certainly, getting your things arranged & settled in their proper place is a big part of it. And then customizing the surroundings (painting, decorating, etc). But, when I was in that week-plus transition between the apartment and the new house, home was whichever place I had my computer set up. Oh, and wherever your bed is too. That's a big one. Those couple of nights spent sleeping on the couch while I was dealing with the bed debacle were quite dispiriting.

But I love this new place! The location is great - I'm a quick 3/4 mile from Lake Nokomis, and a jog over there and then around the lake will be absolutely perfect for my pre-work morning runs. Very cool!

And that brings us to: Marathon prep updates

Due to some packing buffoonery, my GPS was MIA for a while. And truth be told, my running has been ...errr... pretty minimal over the last two weeks. I'm back full-force this week though, and I'm feeling great, so I'm confident the marathon will go well as planned. When I went toe-to-toe with that old dryer and the stairs last Wednesday, I wrenched my back pretty bad. In my infinite wisdom, I decided to still run that night - somehow, that made sense to me at the time. Last week, I was running nights. Not evenings, but nights. Anywhere from 10:30 to midnight-30 starts. I was on a crazy schedule, and those night runs helped me clear my head at the end of the day. So, anyway, last Wednesday... That was the crazy stormy night, but despite my bad back and the storms, I wanted to have one last run in Mendota Heights. So, off I went at about 11:30. At that point, the rain was steady but still pretty soft. After about 10 minutes, all hell seemed to break loose. Rain started coming down in frenzied, wind-whipped sheets. I was unfazed - "Hardcore!", I reassured myself. And then the lightning started. And not just a little. A lot. Still I pressed on. The few people out driving who saw me must have thought I was absolutely out of my mind. They were right.

I was going past St Thomas Academy's athletic fields when it suddenly got very bright. Sort of bright like daylight, but much, much brighter. In daylight, there are still always some shadows that darken things somewhat. This sudden light was unbelievably bright, and there were no shadows. I knew that either I was about to be abducted by aliens, or there was going to be a lightning strike very close to me. Time slowed. Despite the pounding rain, there was a loud sizzling noise steadily building, and I could feel the electricity in the air. Then, the loudest noise I have ever heard in my life - the lightning struck a ballpark light pole about 20 feet from me. Being a military pilot, I've heard a lot of loud things, but nothing like this. I could feel the powerful concussion of that strike, and my ears rang for minutes afterwards. I watched the lightning bolt hit the pole numerous times in that brief split second - I could see the light race up and down the bolt, and then when it was done with the strike itself, flashing dots of light flickered on-and-off along the vertical path of the bolt. To say the least, it was awesome and very humbling to behold. I finished the entire planned run just fine - soaking wet and a bit shaken by the lightning encounter, but the experience certainly made for a memorable last run in Mendota!

Today's GPS Rundown:
Nokomis lap variation
5.69 miles / 45:40 time / 8:02 pace
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Now playing: opus III - it's a fine day

Sunday, August 24, 2008

Whew...

What a week. I am crazy tired right now. And the vast majority of work is yet to be done! At least I now have time off from work to make it all happen. I'm slowly getting things over to the new house, and it's starting to come together. My big items will move towards the end of next week. I was hoping to have started painting by now, but no joy - I've got other things to do ahead of that still.

Note to self: In the future, read instruction labels more carefully, and avoid like the plague any adhesive products that advise: Product contact with skin can only be removed mechanically, or allowed to wear off over time. Mechanically?!? Ugh.

And sorry for the lack of running updates this week - nothing really worth reporting on. Next Monday, I'm going to attempt to get back on track one way or another. Sheesh, I've got to - not much time left to get ready!

Thanks for putting up with my lack of reports - this upcoming week will likely be sparse too, since I have to clear completely out of my apartment. By this time next week, I should be feeling much more "settled" ;-)
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Now playing: the pixies - wave of mutilation

Monday, August 18, 2008

Home, Sweet Home

I am now a bona fide homeowner.

The closing went pretty much as planned today. A few last-minute hurdles to jump getting to the table, but it all concluded just fine. And I walked away from the deal with a nice-sized check in hand - which will all go right back into the house ;-)

I don't think it's really sunk in yet. I don't expect it will until I actually move in and start living there. I'm still darn excited - I have a LOT of work ahead, but I know it'll all be worthwhile! After I get settled in, I'm planning to do a "lessons learned" post about my overall buying experience.

Since I needed a few hours off during the day to close, I skipped my morning run and went into work early. I ran this evening to make up for it. I knew I wasn't as well hydrated as I should've been (naughty bad Hydro!), so I didn't end up going for very long. The numbers turned out much better than I was expecting. Tomorrow will be my planned weekday off, and then I'll start up again Weds morning.

GPS Rundown:
Rogers Lake Figure-8 (mod)
5.03 miles / 40:31 time / 8:04 pace
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Now playing: harvey danger - flagpole sitta

Saturday, August 16, 2008

Saturday's schlep

Today's run was... meh. Good numbers overall (straight-through, no stops), but it didn't feel great. I just didn't enjoy it as much as I usually do my long runs. I suppose it's because I have a lot on my mind with the new house. I was considering doing more mileage today, but the body said it was time to stop when I did, so I didn't push it. I still have plenty of time to hit the 18- and 20-mile marks.

Now, it's time to start moving some items over to the new house, and then get my Home Depot on!

GPS Rundown:
Chain of Lakes variation
14.53 miles / 2:03:18 time / 8:29 pace
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Now playing: new order - 60 mph

Friday, August 15, 2008

Friday run-fu

No run yesterday - it was a planned day off.

Great running weather this morning. Once I was finally fully awake out there, I really enjoyed the run.

GPS Rundown:
Rogers Lake (mod)
5.59 miles / 45:31 time / 8:09 pace
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Now playing: turriff & district pipe band - up in the morning...

Wednesday, August 13, 2008

Wednesday's whoosh

Good news on the closing - it's been officially scheduled again. Maybe not as soon as I'd like, but at least it's back on. By this time next week, I should have the house. I actually have the keys now, but I feel weird moving much stuff until the papers are all signed. I'm very grateful that it's all once again moving forward!

** break - break **

I'm going to start working in one evening run during the (work) week. My mornings are allowing for a ~4.5 mile run, and I'd like to do one longer run during the week. My plan would be to then take the next day off. That'll be fine since I rarely end up running all 5 days as it is. I'd still do a long run on Saturday, and take Sunday off (or a perhaps short run).

I started that tonight. It's pretty muggy out, but I figure doing some runs in the heat is good for my conditioning. I had some energy I needed to get out of my system tonight, so I decided to try my 7.5 mile route in under 8-minute miles. Maybe not by much, but I did it. Feels good.

GPS Rundown:
Rogers Lake + Resurrection (extended)
7.56 miles / 60:13 time / 7:58 pace
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Now playing: the pixies - dig for fire

Tuesday, August 12, 2008

Tuesday trundle

Arguably dreary out this morning, but I prefer it like that for running.

I'm considering some options to beef up my weekday mileage, but I'd like to get this house timeline nailed down better first. In the meantime, just do it.

GPS Rundown:
Rogers Lake + Resurrection Figure-8
6.44 miles / 53:26 time / 8:18 pace
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Now playing: yo-yo ma - unaccompanied cello suite 2 in d

Monday, August 11, 2008

Ugh.

Final word today: Closing has rolexed. It's nothing major jeopardizing the deal overall (thank goodness) - just some title paperwork minutiae that's still not in accordance with, so everything's on hold for right now. Closing should happen by the end of the week; I'll keep y'all posted...

I'll do my final walk-through tomorrow though - that'll give me an opportunity to decide on painting colors and get going on shopping for some other DITY projects I have planned. So, it'll still be a productive day.

"Serenity NOW!!!"



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Now playing: the pop will eat itself - splendour and chaos

So it begins

Brisk out this morning!

GPS Rundown:
Rogers Lake Figure-8 (mod)
4.65 miles / 39:21 time / 8:28 pace
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Now playing: handel - concerto no 6

Sunday, August 10, 2008

Gettin' hip

Feeling swell today - I was curious how tight or sore I may be today after yesterday's big push, but I feel great overall. I'm blessed to not have any injuries or dogged aches & pains so far; although, yesterday, I did notice something a bit askew with my left hip early in the run - it wasn't an irritation or a pain per se, nor was it persistent, it just was something "there" a few times early in the run. It didn't last (thankfully!). Maybe the birdstrike did some damage after all?!? Haha, I'm confident it'll all be fine ;-)

Rundown:
Down day
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Now playing: stereo mcs - connected

Saturday, August 9, 2008

Gittin'er done...

Good run this morning, despite it being ridiculously steamy early on. That seemed to improve as the sun climbed, but the mugginess was pretty heavy starting out.

From Nokomis, I did Harriet and Calhoun and back, and then ran around most of Nokomis to finish it off.

Today marks a first for my long-distance runs this year: I didn't stop during the run. At all. I was lucky with the stop-lights today and only had to slow & swerve a little to get through a couple of them without stopping. The time below is straight through with no stop-n-resume breaks.

I wanted to hit it hard today, since starting next week, I'll have some very busy weekends ahead. And I'm very happy with today's results - I'm definitely feeling good about things.

GPS Rundown:
Chain of Lakes variation
16.70 miles / 2:23:49 time / 8:37 pace
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Now playing: smashing pumpkins - rhinoceros

Friday, August 8, 2008

Quiet Friday evening

...and that's OK. So what if I'm single again, and don't have super fabulous weekend plans? I can either be bummed about it (still am sometimes, I admit), or I can celebrate the great things going on for me right now.

-- I got a raise today. Just a modest one, but it was unexpected. Giddyup!

-- My Minnesota property tax refund came this week - just in time to go right back into my new property ;-)

-- I think my closing will happen on-time after all. An issue arose this week with the seller and the title (looong story), but my loan officer is rockin' it. She stepped in personally today and made it her mission to get it taken care of. Hopefully, now the paperwork gets finalized in enough time. She takes immense pride in closing on the target date, and when there's any threat to that, well... watch out. She's an experienced hard-hitter who knows her way around the system, and I've been really impressed at numerous things she's taken on for me that are well above-and-beyond her expected duties. I'm very lucky to have her on Team Chris

-- Running is going well. Really well.

-- The new baldness is getting good feedback!

And, I don't really have time for any fabulous weekend plans right now anyway - packing calls...
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Now playing: cracker - low

TGIF

I surprised myself with today's numbers - I was very sluggish getting ready for the run, so I didn't expect it to be that fast. Feels good though!

GPS Rundown:
Rogers Lake Figure-8 (mod)
4.60 miles / 38:14 mins / 8:18 pace
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Now playing: styx - mr roboto

Thursday, August 7, 2008

Wise words from a wise guy

The only limit to our realization of tomorrow will be our doubts of today
-- Franklin Delano Roosevelt

Think clearly.
Act rightly.
Good things happen.

A work in progress...
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Now playing: operation ivy - knowledge

Chilly air = good run

GPS Rundown:
Rogers Lake Figure-8 (mod)
4.59 miles / 39:13 mins / 8:32 pace
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Now playing: nancy sinatra - bang bang

Wednesday, August 6, 2008

Hump Day

Nice and cool this morning. Otherwise, NSTR.

GPS Rundown:
Rogers Lake Figure-8
4.55 miles / 40:14 mins / 8:51 pace

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Now playing: green day - when i come around

Tuesday, August 5, 2008

Bird strike

It was still pretty dark out when I turned south onto Dodd Rd. I looked down to check the path ahead for any obstacles that could cause another ankle incident. In my peripheral vision, I caught a quick flash of movement and then was hit... by a bird! Something grey-colored and very small glanced of my left hip and quickly flew away. I haven't had a bird strike in a long time, and I expect it'll be long time again before I ever have another one.

GPS Rundown:
Rogers Lake Figure-8
4.54 miles / 39:46 mins / 8:45 pace
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Now playing: TMBG - birdhouse in your soul

Monday, August 4, 2008

Dear diary,

Since I'm down to an army-of-one for my TCM training preparation, I'm going to start checking in daily here with how I'm doing. It'll help keep me honest ;-) And starting this past Sunday, I now have a way to use GPS on my runs, so I'll be posting exact mileages (as long as it works!) Unfortunately, the GPS interface doesn't play well yet with Macs, so you are just going to have to take my word for it...

Starting last Saturday (8/2 pre-GPS): I'll call it 16 miles. I walked for a while after I rolled my ankle over, and I became too impatient trying to use gmap-pedometer to figure out how much I actually did. 16 seems fair enough.

Sunday (8/3): 4.55 miles (Rogers Lake Figure-8 route). Note to self: pace much improved with new aerodynamic cranium.

Today: 0 miles. Took the day off to let the legs recover. My quads wanted it. On the plus side, my ankle felt completely normal on yesterday's run. I swear that thing is pure rubber - it may fold over easy, but it just bounces right back. How fast it recovers is freakish, considering that it pops (ick!) all fully out of joint when I roll it. Oh well, I'm just happy that it's fine.

I'm planning to hit the trusty ol' Rogers Figure-8 tomorrow morning. For tonight, packing calls...
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Now playing: chet thomas - you're my thrill

Saturday, August 2, 2008

Well, that hiatus was short-lived...

My last post was rather terse. Although I certainly will be busy soon with the move, I feel that I owe y'all an update in the meantime. It's been quite a week...

I've rejoined the ranks of singledom.

How it unfolded has been a challenge to the strength of my recovery program. And, by saying that, I want to be clear that I'm not talking about any temptation to drink over it - I'm grateful to say that hasn't been an issue whatsoever. Rather, I mean the "coping" aspect of it all. There's a part of me that never seems satisfied until I have answers. And that trait has served the thorough hard worker in me very well. However, it can also trigger a lot of stinkin' thinkin' from that addict in me. When it comes to relationships, answers are rarely black-and-white. Some things simply must be accepted at face value, even if not fully understood. Here, a crossroad lies... To chase after answers or resolution to the point of... well... what, exactly? Going down that shoulda-woulda-coulda road of what-ifs & whys rarely--if ever!--leads to a satisfying or happy closing. Alternatively, the other path is acceptance (there it is again!). Acceptance isn't easy when your don't have the answers you desire, but my recovery program resources help me navigate difficult situations like this in a healthy & positive manner.

I'm in no hurry to get back into the dating scene. I'm looking forward to having time to work further on me - that's always time well spent. The new house will keep me plenty busy, and I still have the marathon to prepare for. Additionally, my poor bikes have had a quiet season so far, and I look forward to some great fall riding to make up for that.

The marathon training is coming along fine. I did my first solo long-distance run today and it went very well overall. I did the usual The Lakes run again, but inadvertently ran Lake of The Isles too (long story), so the run overall was just a tad longer than I'd planned! While on the return leg around Calhoun, I thought I was toast when I abruptly rolled my noodley left ankle - the ensuing crash to the ground was rather spectacular. Nearby fellow runners were very nice though, and made sure I was OK. I ended up finishing the last 6+ miles of the run - I'm pretty sure that was not a good idea, but we shall see tomorrow ;-)

And, as of today, I'm bald. Growing out my hair was a fun experiment, but I never was quite happy with it overall. Big change, but I'm liking it...

Peace out!
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Now playing: right said fred - i'm too sexy

Tuesday, July 29, 2008

Looking forward...

I am going to take a break from blogging for while. When I move, I'll send out updated contact info to friends and family, so please watch your inboxes for that. Thanks, and take care...

To thine own self be true
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Now playing: ella fitzgerald - goodnight my love

Sunday, July 27, 2008

Runnin'

Reading over my recent posts, I've been rather unhappy with my weekday mileage. And that's true - it's not where I want it to be. And, as much as I'd like to improve it, I now face a very busy month or so ahead with the upcoming move.

So, I'll do the best I can in the meantime. The long-distance Saturday runs have been going well. It was just 2 of us from the group this past Saturday, but we did 14 miles around The Lakes - not too shabby. We later found out that a certain savvy someone did 14.5 miles on Saturday while she was out-of-town. Show-off ;-) All 4 of us from the group should be in town for this coming Saturday's adventure, so that'll be nice.

I'm getting excited for the move, but not so much about the packing. Yeah, not so much that. On the bright side, the timing of everything is working out just about perfectly. I'll have time after closing to get some interior painting, cleaning, and other prettying up done before needing to move anything over. Now, just gotta figure out how to fit some good runs in - the TCM will be here before I know it!
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Now playing: roger miller - king of the road

Thursday, July 24, 2008

One step closer!

Today, I found out that I cleared the last big hurdle enroute to the closing table... The VA assessor signed off on my house with no work-order requirements, so it finally looks like everything is a GO...

Earlier this week, I learned that my loan package had been endorsed by the underwriter, so it nice to know that the money is all set. I'm very grateful that I was able to lock in my 5.99% interest rate before those starting climbing again recently.

Although I won't really celebrate until I'm walking away from the closing table with keys in hand, it's starting to look like I'm going to be a new homeowner in just under 3 weeks from now. :-)
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Now playing: lyrics born - stay loose (jimmy smith)

Sunday, July 20, 2008

Errr... Monthly update?


I apologize for the lack of updates recently; I've just been busy. And there's really nothing much new or exciting to report right now. Hoping to have more news on the house later this week.

Running is going well - my weekday mileage still isn't consistently where I want it to be, but I'm finishing our Saturday long-distance runs just fine, so that's good. We did 13.5 miles all around "The Lakes" here in Minneapolis yesterday, and I feel great today. So, until this house ordeal is over, I'll just have to be happy with current efforts.

Otherwise, life is going great - this has certainly been a wonderful and blessed spring & summer thus far!
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Now playing: cassandra wilson - the good life

Sunday, July 6, 2008

Weekend Update


I hope everyone had a safe and relaxing holiday weekend!

Mine has been great - fun get-togethers with new friends, nice fireworks shows to celebrate the 4th, a Sunday afternoon flea-market adventure, and still time to catch up on things around the house.

I'm excited to have a very promising new house-hunting development, but I'll hold off on more details until later this week. House-hunting has overall been an interesting learning experience for me. I've certainly learned a lot about the real-estate and home-ownership processes, but it's also taught me a lot about myself - my motivations, my capabilities, my likes/dislikes, my goals, etc. Good stuff - not always easy things to tackle or figure out, but definitely good for me to face squarely.

My running schedule is still not close to being back where I want it to be, but hopefully, I get squared away this upcoming week. That's the plan anyway ;-)
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Now playing: the orb - little fluffy clouds

Tuesday, July 1, 2008

2 years!

In some ways, two years ago seems so incredibly long ago, and in other ways, it seems like yesterday. Two years ago, it was impossible for me to imagine that my life would be as rich & blessed as it is today - I am humbled and very grateful.

One day at a time. That's how I got here, and that's how I plan to move forward.

A work in progress...
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Now playing: thievery corporation - un simple histoire (a simple story)

Plan, plan, and plan again...

The hunt continues. Nothing very interesting to report as of now; I'll be back out looking at properties again tomorrow evening.

I was far too optimistic with my initial forecast of how quickly I would find a place. I'm learning that my experience thus far (a few early strikes) is completely par for the course, and that I shouldn't be at all discouraged. The biggest concern of mine recently is what I would do when my current apartment lease ends and I still have no house lined up. However, I am happy to report today that I have made arrangements that give me welcome additional breathing room. I am hugely relieved, and I am confident that I'll find my own wonderful home soon!
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Now playing: diana krall - let's face the music and dance

Saturday, June 28, 2008

Weekly update

Well, I'm sure you've all correctly concluded from my lack of postings that the previously discussed house deal fell through. The seller's bank became completely unresponsive once they accepted my offer, and we finally just chose to walk away from the whole thing as a result. Oh well. It wasn't meant to be, and that just means a better, sweeter deal is out there for me. I looked at more properties today, and found some promising leads. I'll keep this one under wraps until it's closer to a done deal ;-)

Running suffered this week as a result of my on-again-off-again house scrambling, but that was completely expected. I'll get back into the swing of things again here soon, and get caught back up in training just fine.

Otherwise, it's a bee-yoo-tee-ful weekend - I'm blessed to spend it with family and friends. Life is great!
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Now playing: eclipse - movin' nicely (the modern jazz quartet)

Monday, June 23, 2008

Note to self...


Replacing a blown tube on Ubu is a PITA, thanks to her particularly finicky cup-and-cone hubs.

Oh well - at least it wasn't the rear wheel. After some maddening past wrenching experiments back there, I just don't have the patience to take that Rubik's Cube apart anymore. Drivetrain issues or anything that involves the removal of Ubu's rear wheel is the only thing I'll make a trip to the local bike shop for these days. On the plus side, Ubu's kevlar tires are still holding up like a champ - the tube leak was on a seam near the valve, so after a quick patch job, we're good as new!
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Now playing: limp bizkit - rollin'

Friday, June 20, 2008

Still no "green light"

The big hurdle was cleared earlier this week - the seller's bank accepted my offer. And that was certainly great news! However, in their acceptance documentation, they unexpectedly specified a closing date a little under two weeks sooner than I can be ready for. The mortgage assistance program I am taking advantage of has a 35-day processing period from offer acceptance, so that is the long pole in the tent. My excellent johnny-on-the-spot loan officer is ram-jamming the paperwork through the system as fast as possible, but we are still waiting for a written sign-off from the seller's bank regarding the closing date before we press ahead with our inspection, etc.

I was hoping to have word by today, but no joy. Meh. I suppose no news is good news for the time being - I just have to be patient. My realtor (another rock star!) is aggressively doing his best to negotiate the push, and I'm confident we'll have word by early next week. We don't see why the bank would have an issue with the slightly later date, but stranger things have happened. So, I'm not getting too excited just yet - we still have a ways to go. Even if the bank signs off on the closing date, I'll still have to see my inspector's results before I decide to keep moving forward on this one. Regardless of how this one turns out, it's definitely a great learning experience!

Off to bed for now - my busy weekend starts early tomorrow morning with a 10-miler. Burn, baby, burn!
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Now playing: fugazi - waiting room

Sunday, June 15, 2008

Busy!

Ugh. I've been a bad blogger again lately. Lots going on, but not really much exciting or definite to report on right now...

Marathon update: As anticipated, my plans to maintain an aggressive training plan with morning runs is suffering due to the house hunt. I haven't stopped my training, but it's slowed down again in the last couple of weeks as the house-hunting efforts have intensified. It's just one more give-and-take with my available time, and I just have to keep doing the best that I can. I did 10 miles on Saturday, and I'm feeling fine overall today, so that's a good sign! My savvy friend has been training this season with a couple of her friends - they have been doing longer distance runs on Saturday mornings, and I'm going to start running those weekly with them. Running those longer distances with a group is definitely helpful - I'm very grateful they have welcomed me into their training circle! This week, I did an 'expert' shoe-fitting and got some excellent overall running shoe advice from Run N Fun. That simple effort was long overdue - I'm very happy with this new pair of shoes I scored, and the confidence gained from making a well-informed decision is definitely reassuring.

House update: I have made my first offer on a house this past week, but it's a "short sale" situation, so that adds some additional hurdles to get over. Ultimately, the offer has to be approved by the seller's bank, and it could take a while to get a response. So far, so good... I really like the house, but I'm not getting my hopes up at all - if it's meant to be, then it'll work out. If not, then c'est la vie... In the meantime, I'm still planning to get out with my realtor this week to look at more listings.

Hair update: I went to get the mop cleaned up a couple of weeks ago, and they ended up taking off more than I intended. When asked where I went to get it done, my response was received with a tsk-tsk. Apparently, I should start going to a "real" stylist in order to properly maintain the longer hair & curls. When I though about it, that does make sense, so that's what I'll do next time. As I've mentioned before, I know my hairline is making a steady retreat, so I want to make the best of it while I can!

Overall, my previously very quiet social life has blossomed this spring into a lot of new activities & obligations - and that's a wonderful thing! I am--of course!--very happy about that, but definitely requires me to budget my available time more carefully. Gone are the days of having plenty of "me time", but I much prefer it this way ;-) Things will settle back down significantly when this house-buying adventure concludes one way or another, but I know that point is still a long way off.

I'll post up again when I have more news; until then, thanks for putting up with my blogging slow-roll!
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Now playing: jane's addiction - the riches

Thursday, June 5, 2008

Great meeting tonight...

Particularly excellent AA meeting tonight!

One friend who I first met while doing my out-patient treatment at Hazelden celebrated his '3 years' tonight - what an inspirational transformation & journey he's had in those 3 years! He truly lives The AA Program earnestly, and has long been a shining example to me of the success that humble & sincere effort will bring. It was great to see him tonight and celebrate his 3 years!

Another long-time friend from my Thursday night group has recently started to attend the meeting once again after having been away for quite some time. It turns out he suffered a relapse during that time - but he is now back with renewed humility and determination, and he announced tonight that he was celebrating his '32 days'. Again, it was wonderful to be there and commemorate that with him - he's a fantastic guy, and it's great to see him back on the beam!

Sobriety anniversaries, both big & small, are great things to celebrate in recovery meetings - the experience, strength, and hope shared by those who are marking an anniversary always leave me with an astute takeaway - whether it's the insight of someone celebrating just 24 hours, or someone celebrating 35 years. All good things!

Tonight, we covered Step 11 - "Sought through prayer and meditation to improve our conscious contact with God as we understood Him, praying only for knowledge of His will for us and the power to carry that out"

This Step always reminds me of a favorite quote:

"Do not pray for easy lives, rather pray to be stronger men! Do not pray for tasks equal to your powers, rather pray for powers equal to your tasks." -- Phillips Brooks

Or, as my Mom once told me, "God will not test you beyond your capabilities." Sometimes, that can be very hard to believe! But I must believe it; I cannot persist and grow if I do not accept that truth. And the strength to do that can only come from a sincere spirituality and complete trust in God's will.

This week has seen some challenges for me that definitely relate to Step 11. Even something as 'small' as my whole house-buying effort - I must be careful not to get headstrong or greedy or too self-reliant as I move forward in this process.

But perhaps more tangibly, I've recently had an unwelcome intrusion into my personal circumstances. The details are unimportant, but what I learned from that was echoed thoughtfully in tonight's reading and discussions.

My first reaction was this recent challenge was to explain, explain, explain, and even blame, blame, blame... But that's not the right answer - that's my EGO (Edging God Out) trying to steer the course. Sure, some explanation was necessary to work through it all; but ultimately, I knew the true answer was that key to both my sobriety & peacefulness: Acceptance.

And acceptance ain't always easy, but I've found these three things help me get there...

1.) be sincerely present
2.) be willing to do the next right thing, and take positive action
3.) be truthfully and humbly accountable

When I can accept, I know I have the capability to persevere, and remain spiritually & emotionally healthy. This foundation gives me the strength to not succumb to blinding emotion inevitably resulting in debilitating inaction, or selfish & misguided maneuvering. I have, can, and still do suffer from all of those things at times - I am still only human, after all! But acceptance not only allows me to more often prevent that, but also to then recover from my missteps in a responsible manner when they occur.

This recent challenge could well have resulted in a disparaging loss for me, and I immediately prepared myself for that possibility by accepting that God's will be done, not mine. I don't know how many times I said both that phrase and The Serenity Prayer to myself that evening, but it was a lot!

Even if things hadn't ended up working out so well, I still would've trusted & accepted that it was God's will for this situation - even though it would have been very difficult (to say the least!). One thing is for certain - I would've been on the phone with my sponsor about the whole thing a heckuva lot more than I have been! ;-)

So, as I blogged about a while ago, acceptance truly is the answer - especially when things aren't as we would desire!

A work in progress...

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Now playing: big drill car - a take away

It's on like Donkey Kong!

I've decided to finance with another lender (sorry USAA!), and had a meeting with my loan officer this morning to go over & sign all of the papers, and crunch "the numbers" for houses in the areas I'm interested in - and it all looks good-to-go! I'm cleared for the loan amount that I was looking to get, and the monthly payments look like they'll work out just fine. Best of all, I'll need no down payment! Between me putting cash up for earnest money and tax payments prior to close, it looks like I'll actually walk away from the closing table with a nice-sized check for myself - pretty sweet deal!

I had to finance with a "local" lender in order to qualify for the City Living program (score!), and between that program and my VA loan, it's nice not to have any worries about fronting a big down payment - I'm very excited that all of this is working out so well!

Next week, I'll be going out to look at houses at least two evenings during the week, and I'm now completely ready to confidently start making offers - how cool is that?

Time to start pouring through the listings in earnest again...
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Now playing: the church - metropolis

Sunday, June 1, 2008

Big smiles!

I've had an absolutely fantastic weekend! I got in some great long-distance runs, and I'm blessed to have been able to spend much of the weekend with a certain savvy someone who's become very special & dear to me. I met & spent time with some terrific folks who are close friends of hers, and I was honored to have that privilege - I know that's not an easy or comfortable step in a new relationship. And I'm very grateful to her for that! Life truly is good...

And I'm also grateful that she had cold, hard cash for our lovely Grand Old Day adventure! ;-) Note to self: Visa is not everywhere I want it to be.
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Now playing: sarah vaughan - fever

Why I do what I do

I started this blog primarily to document my Recovery experience, both good & bad. It has been a therapeutic way for me to share insight into this epic journey of mine with family & friends by providing a convenient way for me to express things that I may not be ready or willing to talk directly about for whatever reason.

And, hopefully for others, it has been an effective advocation for the miraculous capacity of the 12-Step recovery program by sharing my own experience, strength, and hope.

Over time, my blog has grown into a place to share all sorts of things about me. Because of my success in recovery, The Promises of AA are all steadily coming true, and I am genuinely gaining back my life (on life's terms!) - an unbelievably fantastic & exciting new version of it.

At different points, I've considered restricting access to my blog, or starting a new blog for various different things, but I've always finally decided that this blog must stay public, open, and available to all. If I'm not comfortable sharing what I have share with everyone & anyone, then that hints at some personal unrest or paranoia, and those aren't healthy things for me to enable or foster.

Sure, there are occasionally some topics that I'd initially love to blog (i.e. vent) about, but in the end, those wouldn't be productive or healthy things for me to highlight or dwell on anyway. Recovery has taught me the value of letting go and personal housecleaning & mindfulness, so harboring or validating any feelings which breed a sense of unrest or resentment for me is very counter-productive. In that sense then, this blog also provides me a very tangible reality check whenever I sit down to post.

So, any & all will always be welcome here to my blog - I hope that you find overall my experiences shared here a hopeful & bright testament to the miracle of Recovery.

I still am (and always will be!) far from perfect, and I certainly make mistakes as I move forward; but today, I am willing, able, and strong. Just two short years ago, I was none of those things. By the grace of God, I will continue sincere & humble effort in strengthening and nurturing my Recovery journey - after all, it's one I will be on for the rest of my natural life ;-) Thanks for stopping by - enjoy!

A work in progress...
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Now playing: nina simone - feeling good

Saturday, May 31, 2008

Run on!


I've been applying my springtime theme, and many good things are happening!

One of them is that I signed up for the 2008 Twin Cities Marathon a while back. I was trying to keep it a secret for a couple of reasons…

One, if it looked like it may actually work out, I wanted it to be a surprise for a certain savvy someone. However, that was getting hard to do. I need to let family & friends know about my plans so that they understand that my training is a priority for me, and that it takes up a lot of my time & attention - trying to keep 'the plan' under wraps wasn't panning out well.

Two, back to that whole "if it looked like it was going to work out…" thing… I'll be honest - I'm still not really sure yet. Even if this whole house-buying ordeal doesn't work out, I'll probably still be moving this summer, so I'm going to have a lot on my plate! Plus, I have not thus far been training particularly hard at all - but that part has changed in the last couple of weeks…

So, the training thing: I've changed my hours at work to accommodate running in the mornings. I now have plenty of time to get in a long run every morning. That significantly frees up my evenings for other things - house-hunting, having a life, and cross-training (i.e. mountain biking!). Right now I'm logging mid-30s for weekly mileage, and am planning on bumping that up to mid-40s starting next week, then going up from there.

Who knows if it'll all end up working out. But I know this: I've talked a lotta smack about doing another marathon ever since my last one, and it's all just been "Well, yeah, definitely someday… next year for sure, I think…" After discussing this possibility with my savvy running role model one evening a while back, I decided that unless I actually sign up for one, I know I'll never get serious about really doing the preparation. And The Good Lord knows that I'm never short on excuses – heck, don't forget that I'm an alcoholic - I'm pretty good at finding excuses! ;-)

I'd already promised my friend that I'd assist & participate in her training for the marathon – and when I really thought about it after speaking with her that night, I said to myself, "What the heck are you waiting for? Sure, it'll never be a 'good time', but these are darn favorable circumstances!" And, lo & behold, slots were still available when I then checked online, so I signed up.

And if it doesn't work out, then it doesn't work out. Even if I don't end up running it for whatever reason, I'm still going to do great things for myself by doing the prep work – and that's definitely worth it!
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Now playing: moby - run on

Monday, May 26, 2008

A few random things

1.) My hair is getting pretty darn gnarly. I'm liking it! The curls are most definitely back. I was going to get a clean-up trim this weekend, but I decided that I'm just going to let it go nuts. Well, that is until I'm advised that it should get cut ;-) The only thing that bugs me is that it turns into a rather crazy looking wind-blown afro (eerily similar to that Facebook ad I posted previously!) when I'm out running sans product, but oh well...

2.) This thing - it may look dorky, but it's pure genius!

3.) Windoze = evil. Macs rule.

That is all. Carry on.
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Now playing: guy's band - random jam

Ready, set, go...

Busy work week ahead. I'm going to pursue the City Living program for possible mortgage grant assistance, and will be attending a 9-hour seminar this week in the evenings as prerequisite for that program. Ugh, this is going to be a verrry long week - I'm so grateful that it'll only be 4 days! Between the early morning runs and go-go-go late evenings, I'm going to have to be very careful to stay well-rested, properly fed, and well-hydrated. Something tells me that I'm going to have a pretty busy weekend too ;-)

I'll have more news later this week...
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Now playing: republica - ready to go

Saturday, May 17, 2008

Me no speakee Facebook

I don't get Facebook.

I've never really understood the allure of online social networking sites ala MySpace and Facebook, but I figured I'd take the plunge and throw together a Facebook profile. I thought perhaps my eyes would finally be opened to whatever the draw was. After several months now, my 'friends' number a whopping 3. I'm not quite sure what to make of that...

Truth be told, I expected to find many more folks I know out there, but I haven't. The 3 friends I have know all approached me, which was great - it's wonderful to be back in touch with those guys. But for the ones I have gone in search of since, I'm not sure how I feel about this whole 'friend' procedure - the power to control the establishment & status of a 'friendship' in such a public and potentially abrupt on-or-off way seems almost high-school-ish to me. But I guess that's how it has to be - I don't have any better ideas, or I'd be a young bazillionaire thanks to my own new uber-popular social-networking site concept.

This Facebook/MySpace concept of 'friendship' is a rather strange new twist on the concept of friendship as I have always understood it. Meh. Add that to the long list of things that I don't get. I guess that's all part of getting old and lame. Oh well. I'll leave my profile up, and see who stops by. You never know.

And, in conclusion, I'd like to share this gem of an advert I found on my Facebook page today:



Does Facebook really know that I'm balding? Apparently so. Well, this miraculous product seems to not only cure baldness, but it also somehow makes you look like Prince Harry stylin' a sweet Napoleon Dynamite afro, even if you didn't look anything at all like him before. Powerful stuff!
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Now playing: garbage - i think i'm paranoid

Wednesday, May 14, 2008

Brand new shine

I'm still just at the stage of going through my realtor's daily emails which detail qualifying listings, but the internet certainly is a very helpful way to 'shop' until I have time to f2f with my realtor.

My sister B told me the other night that she knew right away when she first saw the houses that she ended up buying, and I'm hoping to have a similar 'love at first sight moment' too. There is one great listing in today's email that definitely piques my interest, although the price is currently outside of what I'd like to be considering. I'm going to do a drive-by this weekend of it, and then talk to my realtor about that one for sure. Since it's a new listing, I'm hoping the price will come down some, and then... who knows? We'll see. I must admit that it definitely gets bonus points for being close to my savvy new lady friend ;-) Her neighborhood is one of the areas I'm shopping in - I like it.

No matter how much I end up liking a place, I gotta stay smart and not get in over my head with anything. That's just something I need to keep reminding myself, since I know temptation will be great and that I'm all too capable of championing implausible self-serving rationalizations (a well-honed aptitude of any alcoholic!!)
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Now playing: soul asylum - brand new shine

Sunday, May 11, 2008

Cabaret

Went to see Cabaret at the Ordway last night - excellent show! The music was fantastic, and the show was contagiously energetic. I hadn't seen a performance of Cabaret prior, and I very much enjoyed it! Many thanks to my svelte, sophisticated, and savvy friend for spearheading the plans... I wasn't in the best shape last night due to some head congestion, but she put up with me and my sniffles nonetheless. It was a most delightful evening!
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Now playing: sarah vaughan - cheek to cheek

Still perusing

Not much news on the house-buy front lately... I'll have some more time available over the next couple of weeks to get out and put eyes on some of the neighborhoods and listings I'm interested in. Until then, I'm still just going over & comparing the qualifying listings I'm getting via email - lots out there!
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Now playing: the clash - should i stay

Thursday, May 1, 2008

Approved!

Financing is a GO! Thanks USAA! I'm not yet sure if this is the loan I'll end up using (terms & conditions), but it sure is a great feeling to know that I'm a good candidate to get the benjamins I'm after.

So let the shopping begin!
My realtor has started feeding me listings for the price range and features I'm looking for, so I'll have plenty to start watching & comparing over the next couple of months. I'm pretty excited...

Currently, I'm looking in the Northeast Minneapolis & even Uptown areas. My brother first recommended looking in Northeast, and I've heard good things from several other people now too, so I'm starting there. We'll see how it goes.

That would mean that I'm not as close to the great mountain bike trails here closer to my current location, but location is all a give & take. Compromise is the key to success in many areas of life, and I want to be smart about it with this rather huge investment.

And, I have a sneaking suspicion that I'll be doing more running than biking this summer anyway. I have some catching up to do :-)
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Now playing: the flying lizards - money

Monday, April 28, 2008

Hmmmm...

My blog got a lot of hits today from USAA. I wonder if that bodes well for me, or not? Meh, what's done is done - hopefully, they liked what they read :)

USAA contacted me today about getting the MoversAdvantage program set up, so that was great & fast service! And by the end of the day, their recommended local realtor called me, but I was on the train and couldn't take the call. I will follow up with her in the morning...

So, big kudos to USAA so far. Now, I'm just keeping my fingers crossed that all of the financing works out in the end. Even if/when I get the pre-approval, I may well find out that what I'm looking for in an abode is not congruent with my current financial situation overall, so we'll just have to see how it all plays out. I am excited to be getting hooked up with a USAA-blessed realtor though - good stuff!
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Now playing: presidents of the usa - back porch

Saturday, April 26, 2008

I heart USAA ... so far ;)

I'm moving along with a mortgage pre-approval from my longtime go-to bank, USAA. So far, so good - I cleared the initial hurdles in the app, but I'm not out of the woods yet. Although my credit is excellent and my only current debt is The Toaster, I don't yet have a long work history with my current employer, so that could be the show-stopper. These days (ongoing credit-crunch & rampant foreclosure aftermath), banks everywhere are not willing to take any risks, so although it's a buyer's market, it's not necessarily easy to line up financing...

I am also planning to take advantage of their MoversAdvantage program which will put me in contact with local realtors who work closely with USAA - I feel that I'll be in extremely good hands (as long as the mortgage financing pans out!). USAA is the overall #1 again this year for their incredible start-to-finish, all-inclusive customer service, and I'm excited!

If they end up dissing me for financing, then I'll look elsewhere... But, for now, I'm trooperin' on ;-)
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Now playing: johnny cash - i walk the line

Thursday, April 24, 2008

Hair update

I'm back to letting it grow out again. Giddyup ;-)
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Now playing: louis armstrong - hello dolly

Acceptance was the answer

It was our monthly "topic night" at my AA 12x12 meeting tonight, and Acceptance was drawn from the hat.

What a wonderful discussion! I immediately went to one of my favorite passages from the Big Book - these wise & powerful words resonated with me the very first time I read them, and it's a passage that I often revisit when I am discontented with circumstances in my life. It always helps me get back on a path of right thinking & right action, and helps restore my proper balance...

"And acceptance is the answer to all my problems today. When I am disturbed, it is because I find some person, place, thing, or situation - some fact of my life - unacceptable to me, and I can find no serenity until I accept that person, place, thing, or situation as being exactly the way it is supposed to be at this moment. Nothing, absolutely nothing, happens in God's world by mistake. Until I could accept my alcoholism, I could not stay sober; unless I accept life completely on life's terms, I cannot be happy. I need to concentrate not so much on what needs to be changed in the world as on what needs to be changed in me and in my attitudes."

-- Big Book, p 417 (emphasis mine)

For this tall order, the Serenity Prayer is the most helpful resource for me. When I can truly surrender disturbances that are out of my control, and be genuinely accountable for things I can control, then I can't deny that things work out amazingly well! Good stuff.

A work in progress...
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Now playing: U2 - grace

Sunday, April 20, 2008

One day at a time...


It's likely to start getting sparse in here. Lots of exciting new Works In Progress, but not much time lately to document them all. Things on my plate include:

-- Running season has done sprung, and thanks to a very motivating & wonderful new friend, I'm considering doing some races this year. No promises yet - more details to follow later…

-- Mountain biking season will be at full-steam soon! Can't wait to get on the local trails – some have opened up since late last week, but I haven't been out on them yet. Soon, soon, soon!

-- House-hunting. Yeah, yeah, I know… I'm lollygagging with that. Again. I need to jump-start that endeavor this week.

-- And, last but certainly not least… I am dating. Disclosing details wouldn't be prudent, but I owe family & friends that explanation for where a goodly chunk of my time & attention is going lately.

I'll (of course) keep posting, but I doubt it'll be as often or comprehensive as I'd like. Thanks to you all for your loyal readership and kind words of encouragement & support!
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Now playing: dean martin - ain't that a kick in the head

I heart Public Radio

I meant to post this all earlier, but better late than never…

Most of you know that I'm an avid MPR listener and supporter. If you too are a regular listener of Public Radio programming (news on 91.1, The Current on 89.3, or classical on 99.5) and are not already a supporting member, please voice that Public Radio is important to you. Minnesota Public Radio needs your help as an advocate and a donor.

See you there tomorrow evening!

And... Get ready to Rock The Garden! It should be an incredible show - I'm looking forward to it! ;)
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Now playing: fIREHOSE - hear me

Sunday, April 13, 2008

The Iron: Round 2

I haven't bamboozled y'all with some true mediocrity for a while now, so let's get mundane, shall we?

A long time ago, I blogged about my distaste for ironing. And I still have no love for that particular necessary evil, but I've found an interesting new toy. Change is good, right?

I've always been curious if a steamer device like this could be an improvement over the traditional iron & board technique, so I looked into them. Indeed, they seem to offer improved convenience, but good ones are $$$, and Amazon is rife with people who lament their decision to buy the cheapie versions. I decided it wasn't an investment worth the price, but I still looked once in a while on Craigslist and eBay, and I found a nice one recently at a steal of a price.

So I got it.

It's ...well... impressively large. If that alone implies high quality, then I'm all set.

"OK", I decided, "So it's much bigger & heavier than I thought it would be. Even though I feel like one of the knights from 'Monty Python and The Holy Grail' pushing around the Trojan Rabbit every time roll it in & out of my closet, that's really no big deal."

But the fact that it looks like awkwardly out-of-place industrial machinery still irks me. It will certainly remain as well hidden as possible when guests come over:

"Holy crap!!! WTF is that thing?!?"
"It's my clothes steamer. It's sort of like a big iron."
"Yeah, it sure IS big. Dude, how much stuff do you iron?"
"Well, actually not that much, really."
[insert "Are you nuts?" look here]
"I gotta go."

However, it does work pretty darn well - I'll give it that. But it gets all crazy hot & steamy. I never really feared burning myself with my iron, but I just know that I'm eventually going to have an incident with this monster requiring an ice-pack & lots of aspirin. Oh well - new challenges are good for me.

I am determined to tame this machine!

However, I'm still keeping my old iron and board just in case...

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Now playing: talking heads - burning down the house

Theme for Spring '08...

Leap, and the net will appear.

This spring, I am blessed to have some wonderful new opportunities before me - both big and small. I pray that my willingness to risk & dare as I move forward remains balanced and unselfish. I am ready.

"Why not go out on a limb? Isn't that where the fruit is?" -- Frank Scully

A work in progress...
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Now playing: fatboy slim - the journey

Thursday, April 10, 2008

Brrrrr!

What a crazy night out... An hour later, and I'm still chilled from my relatively short time outside during the evening commute. This soaking & wet bone-chilling cold is hard to shake off!

No run for me tonight - I'll hit my meeting, and then I'm looking forward to a nice hot bubble bath.

It's been a quiet week for me on Blogger here; however, all is well. Very well, as a matter of fact ;)
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Now playing: joshua redman quartet - rejoice

Saturday, April 5, 2008

Opera, anyone?

Late last night, I was asked by a savvy new friend if I wanted to see an opera at The Met today. And so we went. No, it didn't involve a red-eye flight to NYC -- it was a local Live in HD simulcast of La Bohème.

I enjoyed it very much! This concept provides a unique introduction to world-class opera, particularly for a gauche newbie like myself. It's well worth checking out!
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Now playing: the cure - just like heaven

Wednesday, April 2, 2008

Spammed!

Not long after publishing my post last night, I noticed that a post comment showed up saying "Please check out (link)". Of course, that comment went directly to the trash without further investigation. Perhaps my racy post title attracted unwanted bot attention?

However, I then noticed my blog received 20+ hits from all over the world within the short, few-minute span that the comment was still active - and mostly from some pretty shady places. Ugh.

So, that's why I have added the word verification step in order to post a comment. I hope that won't deter anyone from posting up, but I'd rather not leave an open door here for the next bot wandering through the neighborhood. Your understanding is much appreciated!
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Now playing: elvis - suspicious minds

Tuesday, April 1, 2008

Yeah, take it off, baby...


Got the hair cut tonight.

It was nice for a while there to see the curls come back, but I wasn't diggin' on the mind-of-its-own wookieness lately. Perhaps I haven't give it enough time, and I was actually on my way to great things at some longer length, but this surly & uncooperative length recently was irksome. Maybe I'll give it another run in the future, who knows...

I really like the way it looks now - a good balance, if I do say so myself. And - in the end - we've each gotta be the ones happy with our own goods, right? ;)
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Now playing: eels - novocain for the soul